my life

its been 6 months ever since september . I have started to contact people much lesser now . And been living life on my own . i hardly step out of the house and i been bearing alot of pain on my own for this much now. Whenever i think of what happened in the past , i start to be out of control and will burst into tears. But im better and holding it now. Because even if i burst out on my fb wall or vent on someone . It wont help me much . It will just make people think im a attention seeker and a burden to others. Im sure there are others in this world who are alone but if they can live through life so can i . I will change and will become stronger , i wont let this affect me anymore. The reason i still living is to live on for my family and ensuring that they will continue to have a stable life . I wont be selfish to take my life away. No matter what i will be strong. I wont give in to my depression i am facing.