some experiences i had in 2011

2011 was a stressful year for me and also a great experience for me , because of 2011 i"ve changed for the better, i became closer friends with my ex classmates and found true friends along the way that be there for you when you need them, i was sec 5 back then doing 2011 , all of my closest friend i had in school had went ite , so i was alone with no one to talk to , i felt unsafe with everyone because of personal matters that happen when i was sec 1 and 2 , every school day would practically be almost the same , in class i would either sleep, pay attention or sms outside school friends and doing recess i will be sitting somewhere alone using itouch and this went on the whole year , doing the first half of the year i could still take it , as there will not much after school lessons doing the first half the year , so it was still tolerable , but doing july onwards i could hardly take it anymore i wanted to give up i even skipped after school lessons , i hate being alone in school with no friends , i burst out crying to my friends , my parents , i hated sec 5 , i wanted to go ite and give up o levels , but it was too late by then i couldnt quit as ite intake was only till april i did terrably for my prelims , i only had passed 2 subjects which are english and e maths out of my 6 subjects and failed the rest , i was lost and unsure what to do , but one day my parents had a talk with me they told me that ,"hey me and your dad dun really bother about your results , all we want is to see you DOING YOUR BEST in your studies we know u fear failing ur o's , we know how much u hate school and how you feel about this , ALL WE ASK OF YOU IS TO DO YOUR BEST IN STUDYING , AS LONG AS U DO THAT WE WILL BE ALREADY PROUD OF YOU , now this sentence pull me up , it makes me realize that it isnt too late , theres still time even though it was quite late then , it was doing september that i tried to study harder i only had 2 months left to my o level , i started attending after school lessons , studied more at home , there still a few times i wanted to give up , but nevertheless i pulled myself through , it was worth it all my sufferings have been payed off , and in case u are wondering what i got for my o's a 22=) , i have passed all my subjects including A maths which i failed all the time , i even thought i have failed o levels and i would go ite XD, i guess this proves hard work will pay off , now looking back im glad and thankful to my parents and friends who gave me their never ending support , so boys and girls who are taking o level this year GOOD LUCK JYS =) u should never give up and continue studying NO MATTER WHAT CIRCUMSTANCES U ARE IN , remember RESULTS COME SECOND , THE EFFORT U PUT IN COMES FIRST , because if u put IN EFFORT , UR RESULT WILL SHOW , so what u should do is to concentrate on the amount of effort u put in , the more effort you put in the better results u will get =) okay enough about studys i will talk about personal life experiences i had with friends , i have this v close friend of mine her name is qianhui , now whats so good about her ? how does she make me change greatly ? , lets start how we know each other she was in the same skating group as i was , we both had the passion to skate back then we would normally come down east coast park to skate together and have fun with the group , now we were not close back then , it was only when we both miaed from the group that we got closer tgt due to personal matters , we had many things we liked in common so we often have lots to talk about, now a ex classmate i used not to like was lih shuan , i used to find him irritating as he always suaned me alot back then , but after my best friend jonathan intoduced lih shuan to and when they both got together i have gotten much closer to him , my best friend jonathan who was my classmate for three years make this clique , it was my v first clique that ive gone out alot with them , along the way another classmate of mine yusof came to join the clique about two weeks later jonathan have left the clique and thats when the qurrels start to come in , i would be angry by small matters and make a big fuss of it , yusof will badmouth and throw temper most if the time , qianhui and ls did somethin(forgot what they did) and none of us did not want to talk nicely what happened, it was so bad that jonathan had to step in , even when jonathan was there we still quarreled until jonathan said this " EH , u all dun realize how childish u all are , if u all continue like that u all confirm continue qurreling one , do u know the root of the problem u guys have? IS THAT U ALL DUN ACCEPT EACH OTHER , EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT IN THEIR CHARACTER AND LIKES LIKE I LIKE FISH BURGER AND U LIKE MCSPICY , U ALL DIDNT PUT URSELF TO EACH OTHER SHOES . Now this sentence have thought us a very important lesson, a lesson neither of us would ever forget , we realize how different people have different characteristics , how we SHOULD ACCEPT OTHERS of who they are and not judge them , only then friendship will grow stronger , IM thankful to know qianhui , because alot things i wouldnt have LEARNT if i didnt know her , whats good about her is that she think of others first before herself , how shes able to GIVE IN to what other people wants , shes also a strong person for a girl , she have gone through sufferings which are much WORSE than other people and yet she can still smile ,laugh and be happy with her life for someome who went through so much its simply amazing .just knowing her gave me a great impact to my life , she thought me how important friendship is and how to give in to others . im thankful to faith for having a great friend like her , another special mention will be jonathan . but i will blog about it 2mrw as it will be a long one .

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now i know i really changed

today an ex enemy of mine came to ask me about my o level results , so i told her my l1r4 was 22 and where i wanted to go and what i wanted to plan , along the way we had small arguements , in the past i used to want to win her arguement , but now i dun even bother about it anymore , she still hold grudges against me which i totally dun get it why, its been so long ago she keeps wanting to prove shes better than me , but why? . Is she affected how i talked big in the past? idk , but this is what i have to say , i've changed whether u believed or not its true people will change in life eventually its just when , i dun bother whether you are very smart and come from a top school , it dosent matter to me anymore because you live your own life while i live mine and furthermore all this things its the past , i even forgot that i swore to you that i wanted to get 20 points and below , this enough proves that whatever grudges against you i let it go , i've accepted you , your character your behaviour and everything , everyone is different , we all have our own point of views , we are make differently and no one is perfect beings , so please stop trying to show me how better you are then me , i had enough , i dun want another stupid quarrel to start again , if you really want me to see you as the top student of singapore fine . I dun mind answering all your questions as long you keep your insults and comments to yourself , if you have anything to ask me go ahead , just drop me a message , i will clear your doubts , clear whatever we had in the past , so what do u say elma? want to let the whole past be over? choice is yours