today

Today was a fun day . Went out at 5 met up with qianhui , lih shuan , stanley and darren . stanley me and qh met up first we went to sit at the marina sq staircase before we went to eat after eating we had a fun seesion disturbing stanley XD i laughed till i cried omg. Around 8pm it started to drizzle we decided to head back to marina sq to slack even more till 9 plus we went home . Honestly i didnt expect this day to turn out this way. Initially i did not want to call qh and lih shuan to come because i thought stanley and darren wont talk and be quiet . But it ended we all got closer together : ) who knew things turns out like this? . Its so great for our clique to have more people joining us esp those two jokers hahah.. I REALLY LOVE TODAY. I WISH EVERYDAY WAS LIKE THAT . Chilling with friends having a good laugh , i feel that each that im getting stronger im changing even more ,becoming more open towards others .MY real wish now is to get out of secondary school and have as many friends as possible .. i just want a new life , not one like this school and start a new beggining. Its been months since i last skated and i have decided to pursue to slalom because of a few reasons.... i have been seeing alot of slalom videos lately esp kim sun jin , guo fang, chen chen . igor . They really inspired and touched me alot .I love their slalom moves , their freedom . Im envious of kim sun jin esp his famous and his paid to slalom ... i wished i had a job like that whereby i do what i want to do something to express my freedom FREEDOM is what im fighting for right now . THIS PHRASE FROM KIM SUN JIN INTERVIEW MAKE ME ENVIOUS 'i like to travel more outside of asia ,try to do my best in all the competitions and id like to meet more foreign skaters' this is what i want too... and kim sun jin has really inspired me..... like i him i want to travel meet new people have more friends with the same passion skating side by side... after my o levels.... im going train for slalom... and maybe one day i will get a chance to skate along side with ksj :) ...(dreaming)

how did i ended up breaking down

how did i ended up breaking down .lol... fuck... i flashbacked and i wishes i knew these guys earler..

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my life=)

dear friends Todays post is going to be about myself whereby i reveal the true self so that you guys will know me better to start off i have 2 personalities my first personality is common towards regular people whereby i keep myself quiet and dun talk to you and keep silent my mouth is mostly shut and i will just mostly nod my head yes and no the reason is because i feel unsafe with people due to the bsteping i received alot so if i happen to use this personality please bear with me awhile until i get to know you better then if im ok with u i wont really use /or not at all)this personality on you . my second personality is common towards close friends whereby im super noisy and hyperrr hahah and i talk like a dinosaur(my friends said) i will joke around do nonsence things to make u laugh when ur down and i will always be there for u =) if i can trust eu more ii will tell eu secret things about myself . Another thing is that i hate to take photos so please dun ask me to take with u reason is because i hate mirrors and photos alot because i feel that im( disgusting ugly etc you should know) so please dun ask.. thanks. If u realise im also kind when u ask me like( help me throw , lend me money , etc) and i rarely say no to a request b4 so dun take advantage of me.. sometimes im a straightforward person, if i find you too much(guai lan etc) i will tell it straight to u because i feel that is better for eu to know so u can change . i have weak points as well, sometimes i badmouth people which im not proud off , but i wont bafmouth without a gd reason and im and tryin to make a habbit not to badmouth people . Im not a fighter and i can just be ur advisor at most i will talk to the other party if u have problems dun ask me beat up the other guy( eu know who u are) next i dun like people to come to me and say "eh ur face v jialat leh" or other compliments you dun have to state the obvious when i already know i know im f_ kin ugly i know im pimple face bolding fat etc eu dun have to tell me cuz i already know and honestly if u tell anoyonr that it just showing that u are bhb. because no one is perfect to begin with so who gives u the right to say others? . another thin is if ur unhappy with me tell me straight into my face i can take it if i did something wrong guai lan eu or whatsoever TELL ME .. i dun like people to bad mouth pr suddenly suan me or guai lan me for no fking reason this makes me pissed. yeah i think thats all i can say about myself that im willing to share if u r reading this post i trust u wont spread this blog to anyone or tell any other people if u know my blog that means i trust you as a friend so kindly please dun tell anyone about my blog thanks =) hope u know me btr now

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life

i found my true friends a new clique a new life with ls qh and yusof and Its been 4 days since my last skating day wuth ui and i really enjoyed myself doing the ndp. Today is the first saturday without ndp reharsal and not going for it makes me feel weird. That ndp will be the last day i will skate with ui and i will officially mia from them already. Of all the moments with ui i havw enjoyed myself with them i enjoyed the ecp days and steven jokes, unfortunately those days are over . Qh and i feel v unsafe with ui because of all the politics going around
and bsteping behind ur back. I was badmouthed by them too however, i realise that i was badmouthed because of my bad character and mistakes i make and which what make me change . Personally i feel badmouthing is a bad thing because it shows u r backsteping ur friend on the hand badmouthing is good because if u r the person being badmouthed and if u know about it , it will make u realise ur mistake and help u change. "change" is the important key factor to make u a better person. However , instead of badmouthing u should go directly to the person and tell his/her mistake because badmouthing others can hurt the person alot and it will cause ur friendship to widen. So guys dun badmouth others it will make the person unsafe and mia from u just rmb that people can change=) so have a heart to heart talk instead its better so yeah going to slp now nites

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