life

back to blogging ... not much to write about today . I'm doing well for my tests in school so far.but still I'm still a loner in sec 5 sighhh hopefully my sacrifice will be worth it and not being remorseful of not going ite. Damn school life sucks , each day I only look forward to Friday . I'm finally back to studying after a month lol. I'm just not strong enough to stand up for myself anymore . . . even if I do I end up saying something bad . for example Sunday I was freaking tired from Saturday and did not have sufficient sleep so I was abit cranky after skate lesson and I felt half dead already by then . Malcolm had make it worse for me by disturbing me Brian == as usual . well everyone is used to it and after all his is just a 13 years old hyper active kid I was already felt quite annoyed due to his disturbing then I controlled myself all the way . it was then he made a remark that I always never skate like 1 hour go already in a very rude manner that I could
not take It any longer I ended up scolding a vulgarity with a middle finger pointed straight at him. my actions caused Allen to lecture me which embarrass me the most and to add salt to the wound hua Jie was there can u believe it ?two adults lecturing me not to scold vulgar. it was then I realize that we can't control what others say but by respecting others maybe the other party will treat u with respect too . Malcolm is okay sometimes , but last week he was ignorant and rude . The thing is I do respect people , I always offer help no matter how u treat me I am a very forgiving person maybe too forgiving but no matter how forgiving I am
I still have a limit to my tolerance and you shouldn't go overboard and be sensitive towards other feelings. I'm not so zai to be able to withstand every remark and every bad thing a person do to try to hurt or insult me.if I could I will be as good as not
being human. we live to learn yes it's my fault for scolding a vulgar so I'm in the wrong but I just hope u be more sensitive towards others next time
the most sad thing is that I have helped u countless of times and always share things with u even though u were very demanding = ( and rude . you are actually a good kid and one of the person who inspire me to skate ... in fact I bet u inspire almost everyone and it really proves u r super talented and able to learn slides in a blink of a eye . but please learn to be humble = ) it's hard for others to be very kind to u but u being very rude I hope u learn to be more humble and sensitive..

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