I feel lonely inside of me.. why do i have this feeling again..... i should be happy...today never skate because i push myself to the limit yesterday. Im not in a good mood... I have 8 slides to learn in 3 months yet so many thoughts are in my mind. WHYWHYWHY....what isit that is making me this way? .... sigh.... but anyways im sorry to everyone for my past mistakes... im sorry... i know.... last time... i was arrogant. i know i say this a thousand times already... and thanks jonathan for talking to me last time : ) .... i dun want to be like that... i never ever want to be like that... and sorry mellisa for not talkint to u ystd ><><... i wish i was better : (

slides to accomplish before rookie com 2011 march
soyale
heal soyale
toe soyale
ensui
toe sui
heel sui
toe toe parralel

I just dun understand why some people are very arrogant wor == zzz . come back from skating. 3-8pm skate.... lol.... the rain came around 2 and dried around 3pm . I walked to urban inline from macdonald : )... I guess the priest in the chruch was right... lol sometimes waiting can be enjoyable and dosent have to be stressful all the time ; D i walked slowly there it was 20 min walk and i enjoyed the breeze that is blowing : ) . I had a enjoyable feeling inside me waiting for whats going to happen when i meet my friends : )...... reach there and went kfc with wan allen and norman : ) waited for them to eat while i just drink lol.... talk about the international comp that happen ystd... (which is about some china pro that is very energetic doing all level 5 slides and indonesian going there with powerslide ROFL XD)... so went back rink and saw philip and this kid which idk his name.... so chit chat awhile then went to skate then got one uncle help sweep the rink (ty uh uncle : ) ) so do my slides and i improve alot XD and im not li hai okay..... lol x.x best slide parralel nia : (. okay so practice and this small kid kept following me he is also a slider at a very young age around 10-11 I tried to be nice wor x.x.... i last week very bad to him : (..i was in a bad mood last sunday so i kinda ignore him SORRY : (..x.x . But he not bad... i think he soul better than mine lol.... He also quite cute when i slide he try copy.... but for a young age like him he is motivated to slide alot.... : )... 2morw going to mit zeith and one more new person and after that going ecp skate with clavis they all YAY! : D.. ok buh i btr do a math later my parrent nag BYES: D

GOOD LUCK SKATERS : D HOPE U GUYS IMPROVE MORE ^^

Hello everyone. :) im here to blog ^^..... my legs are currently like jelly ... lols cause as usual i skate : P.. nowadays i have been meeting more new people and talking and having more friends. Someone told me something that had even motivated me more. We were talking about snfc about other skaters and etc he told me even u hardcore training and get number one in place what will u gain ? and like studies u study hard get alot more u gained what? . Which really what he says is true. Inside of me i always ask myself why we study so hard for? isnt it getting the job u want and not to earn more money? to me studys isnt everything in life. I now know why i had lost my motivation to study.In the past i always fail almost everything. Till sec 3 i started to pass.... i had no goals and yet i still did well... i guess it was the sense of acomplishment that motivated me to do well. and from then on i started to do well.I used to thouught maybe now i have no goals for anything. But in the future i will have one so i just didnt care about my goals yet.Till augest and when i got back to skating. This is the first time.... i trained so hard for something... Even though my improvements and accomplishment for skating isnt much. But i feel that sense of motivation with a goal every time i put on my skate i keep pushing forward like pushing myself to the limit. People from urban inline really have motivated me everytime i see tham skate it makes me want to skate too...Which I hope to be in their team soon : )....

I realise something i learnt from all the skaters. Life isnt about earning big money or etc is about doing something u want to do having a sense of accomplishement when we push ourself hard. Is not being the best in the whole singapore or etc.No matter how high your standard are in what u do it dosent make u anything and neither will u gain anything.We push ourself to things not to be the best but having a sense of accomplishment ourselves

I want to thank all my friends. i really am trying to change. I feel that im changing. I dun want to be that arrogant person anymore.:)...

Here to blog... : D . haha..... been going skating as usual the weather seems to be btr..... later i going skating again : ) i been meeting new people lately... and i love miting new people is fun : )... i hope to meet more new people : ) for those want to skate come down exp ^^ i will be there most of the time.... : D haha... nowadays my life is the same study skate study skate.... zzzz a maths : (.... i wish i have holiday lor : (... siannnn . nvm nothin blow le byes

Hey here to updae... recently i have not been skating due to the weather..... i have been having alot of bad daes.... and i feel heartbroken and terrible now. On friday i have quarreled with someone and it was very bad she ignored me on saturdae and forgave me at night it was difficult.... i was wrong... i guess i feel frustrated ... .Another thing is my parents have told me that i have not been puting enough effort for a maths which made me sad ... i tried to conviced myself... i did the work but sadly is not enough.... i dun know what im doing : ( i know my tuition teacher and my parents are trying hard but im not putting enough.... The worse thing of all is that i have scared someone away who seems to be a good friend.... i know this person through sg forum and she was intrested in rollerblading... so we talk on msn for quite a long time ... that after that i went out she msg me she was at clementi then i msg her wan me to find her...? she at first she didnt mind me comming but my friend pulled me to orchard... so i have no choice so i just keep asking her to wait or come orchard... i guess.. i must have pushed her... she didnt reply my msg... and obviously have block me on msn..... i feel so sad.... i never thought people are like that... she was quite a good person more imptantly im dissapointed at myself.. i just send her a appology msg... which i doubt she has read it.... haix..... nvm... whats done cannot be undone..... i really wish i have good friends like her.....

I want to thank alicia yesterday for cheering me uup : )..... even though i still feel hurt that i scare some1 away.... haha.... : ) ... ur really a good friend even though u me didnt give me advice and just talk about other things... u at least make feel abit better even most of the time just watch tv and sleep lol

Hey all i will be going sembawang later to skate! yay i love thrus - sun because can skate lol but hopefully will not rain otherwise it will be at carpark le... and down there very sian. over there nothing to do mah.... zzzz.. feel like going ecp... but dk whether should i go there or not because i not so sure whether steven they all go there..... and I nid 99 more dollers for my new skate!! D :..... im goin to buy radius it costs 200 doller quite cheap and its good! i like the design also haha.... even though my roces more exp this radius is so much nicer... i dun like black skates not very nice lol..... im getting new skate because i will need a bigger size skates... and a nicer one of cause lol.... hmm... today play blackshot and maple because nothing to do.... im going to study for a maths soon sian : (..... but i should motivate myself because i know i can pass it.... i feel half hearted... one side of me ask me to quit because now holidy another side of me telling me to take it and sacrifice since i already started i should continue it and also i know im able to pass the a maths paper... and besides its just 1 subject : ) ..... just 2 hours of study a day will do the trick : ).... nothing to blog le..... hope it dun rain : (.....

Pictures of the skate i want....

radius white!!(i want!)

another picture of the radius more clear


Dream skates... i wish to own :(...

seba high deluxe ! cost about 500 plus

and the best freestyle skate in the world! seba igor close to 1k